We all make decisions, big or small, pretty much all of the time – which is just another way of saying that we are essentially negotiators.
We negotiate with others and we negotiate with ourselves. Every decision we make is preceded by an internal negotiation that evaluates which path will bring us the most fulfilment.
We use our emotions.
We use them.
In their essence, they are simply part of the goodness of being alive, but instead of letting them be, we take them and use them to regain our ground.
We use them to try to deny that in fact no one has ever known or will ever know what’s happening.
We use them to try to make everything secure and predictable and real again,
to fool ourselves about what’s really true.
We could just sit with the emotional energy and let it pass.
There’s no particular need to spread blame and self-justification.
Instead, we throw kerosene on the emotion so it will feel more real.
If you realize what the real problem is losing yourself, giving yourself to some higher end, or to another you realize that this itself is the ultimate trial.
When we quit thinking primarily about ourselves and our own self-preservation, we undergo a truly heroic transformation of consciousness.
That's where the magic begins. Big Bang baby....BAM!
ps/smoh
