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Monday, September 30, 2013



I was reading Wittgenstein's Remarks on Colour and something in, 
"Why can't we imagine transparent white glass, even if there isn't any in actuality?" opened up this whole other room of thought. 


I don't know what it is like to be anyone else, but I love thinking and there is a physiological lightening bolt that strikes me when I find some area of experience I have not thought about before. 
It is like my brain, says the brain, gets a new spark plug.

I began wondering about that lightening bolt experience and why it felt the way it did and then I began wondering why anything felt the way it did and it lead to an hour long session with pen and paper on the couch, just exploring the reality of emotions and where their edges are, their causes may lie, etc. 

And so are these question pops in mind;
Does an emotion speed up and slow down like a car?
If someone were begging joyfully, would that be confusing or inspiring?
Can you empathize with an emotion you have never experienced yourself?
What does it mean to want to feel differently and when do you know you have succeeded?


Kindness can soothe many unknown things in others. 
We create the life we live, we cannot wait for a better day or time to come. The time is now and we are the creators of the life we come to love and when it is in align with divine energy it will manifest into being safely, easily and effortlessly. 

I am very grateful for all those who loved me when....and now I am grateful I can pay it forward.... (((♥))) 


ps/smoh
Namaste ^__^

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Risking Ridicule By Being Real

The evolution of human consciousness requires each of to find our unique tune and dance to it. 
We must learn to be the authentic leaders of our own lives. 
Looking around for consensus or approval will not work.

If we are honest and open, 

courageous and inspired, 
forthright and spontaneous, 
we will likely experience “push back” from the constrictive matrix that holds our conditioned reality in place. 

Failure to conform usually costs us something initially, but eventually there is freedom, the promise of something greater than what we were taught to settle for. 




Nietzsche said it so perfectly,

 “and those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.” 

So many people are cut off from the music that makes life juicy, numb to their feelings, ignorant of their inner wisdom and out of touch with their hearts desire.

The level of leadership I am referring to can be lonely leading without considering whether anyone is following is risky but 
at some point in one’s spiritual maturation each of us must come to realize that being true to ourselves is the only path worth taking.



Reality is just a pattern of thoughts, feelings and perceptions held together by stories about who we are, what is possible and how the world works.
ps/smoh

Being true to myself is the only path worth taking 

Friday, September 27, 2013

Tell it like it is, or isn't...

7 billion humans and uncountable species on a tiny planet in one of infinite galaxies, all contained in one universe. 
How many universes and dimensions are all contained in one emanation of consciousness creating its own reflection?

People like to be in clubs. 
I love the irony of people hanging out in the nondual club. 

Don't hang out with people you don't like to hang out with it can get annoying. 
Easier to just be. 
Ah! The simplicity

Silence is infinitely more powerful than noise.

One without reflection is nothing, and "nothing" does not exist. 
That I am is that you are.

We reflect each other, and that is reflection of the source.

Oneness contains diversity, like Yin and Yang in unity. To really understand nonduality, we must see the parts that it is comprised of. 
I am one body comprised of many cells, each of which is made of molecules and atoms, which are all energy in vibration, and that energy emanates from one source.


Thoughts we disagree with are like little friends... 
Without them we wouldn't know what we do agree with...

ps/smoh


Thursday, September 26, 2013

Do not rely completely on any other human being…We meet all life’s greatest journey alone!

Why should the we seek to be self-reliant? 

The answer lies in two words – freedom and safety. 
Being self-reliant gives you more personal freedom to live the way that you want to live. 

Epicurus wrote, 
“The greatest fruit of self-sufficiency is freedom.” 

The more self-sufficient you become, the more freedom you have from other people having control over your life.

It is also a vital part of your overall self-defense. The less self-sufficient you are, the more you are leaving your life to chance. 
Francesco Guicciardini wrote,
“Remember this: whoever lives a life of chance will in the end find himself a victim of chance. The right way is to think, to examine, and to consider every detail carefully, even the most minute.” 

You don’t want to live your life up to chance any more than you absolutely have to.

Think about ways to make your life more self-sufficient. 
How can you prepare for a change in your financial situation? 
What would you do if you could no longer simply go to the grocery store to get your food, or if something happened to your water supply? 

These are things that everyone should give some thought to in order to be prepared for the unexpected. 
Make a list of the ways that you need to be more self-reliant, and then take steps to increase your independence.

Aesop stated, 
“It is thrifty to prepare today for the wants of tomorrow.” 

There is no guarantee that life will always be easy; become as self-sufficient and self-reliant as possible.

ps/smoh

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Do you have any daily practices?

As I can only write about the past from where I currently sit, I can tell you I have played with many things over the years and the only thing that seems to have lasted through all the varying cultural absorptions and personality demolitions is simply asking:

"What do I want?"

This single question has revealed more to me than any other thing I have played with. Since all my actions are dictated by the subconscious answer to it anyway, the more I make it a conscious question, the more I learn about the kind of thing I might be.


Further:

"What do I want?" really helps in relationship, too.

I no longer expect anyone to be able to know what I want and to be considering this as their priority. I used to and I learned it doesn't just hurt, backfire, etc. It actually blocks my creativity and adaptability.

I can't improve with life on the juicy fly if I have already scripted everyone's lines. All I get when I do that is, "Wait! You weren't supposed to say that! You were supposed to say this!"

*Sometimes, "What do I not want?" has the same kind of revelatory effect.


Right now I'm just discovering and playing with the exploration of "me/I" and what that really means in my direct experience w/out labels or thoughts of what that is.

While I've always liked the question of what I want; I find I now wonder about the validity of some of my previous answers to that question.


ps/smoh

Tuesday, September 24, 2013



Few parents appreciate or tolerate someone encroaching on their children's developmental processes by assuming the role of surrogate parent.
And yet, as socially oriented beings, we intervene when a fellow being places him or others in a perceivably dangerous situation.
When a dangerous situation is seen as a socially repetitious condition, society creates laws concerning that condition. It is the greatest portrayal of "for the greater good."
At the same time, those who are appointed to enforce laws are not robots following a program. 

They are members of society, humans with a degree of compassion and discretion, who do their job accordingly, examining the conditions surrounding violations and determining the degree of enforcement they will apply to the situation.
That is the ideal, anyway. It is one thing for an average citizen to act in behalf of his fellow man in an obviously dangerous situation, as in the example given above, of preventing someone from walking off a bridge or leaping from a skyscraper.

It is quite another thing to demand that we assume parenting children who are not our own. And it is another thing to assume the role of enforcer of impersonal laws when we are not qualified for or appointed to that role.

Laws exist for reasons.
Only unreasonable laws are made to be broken.
If all laws were reasonable and for the greater good, and if there were not those among us who disrespect all laws, enforcement, and indeed, the creation of laws, would not be necessary.

This, from an aging rebel and outlaw who raised a son...

ps/smoh

Sunday, September 22, 2013

The desire to be comfortable being illogical is a primary cause of suffering.

Is it illogical, or is it natural for all beings?

Making a comment on a post that I am not that interested in and then reading other comments that I am even less interested in ... causes suffering this comment will auto delete. As an exercise in intellectual gymnastics methodically take each judgement and desire to its source.

Finding that "comfortable" means a lot of different things to different people and even to me, according to circumstances....

The desire to rid ourselves of desire is still desire. Trying to make a lie true creates physical discomfort.
One can interpreted this as that encounters with the seemingly illogical run against our logical understanding and that trying to be comfortable with this logical vs. illogical battle is what causes suffering.

But this would mean that ending suffering would lie in accepting things as being entirely logical or entirely illogical.
Well, I do not touch the concept of "ending suffering" as that would mean:
1) I have discovered all of its causes and
2) I have discovered the end.

My knowledge is incomplete. I do not know all of the ways suffering can arise. I only know the ones I have experienced.
When I try to become comfortable with a lie that is with a contradiction I suffer. It is a physical experience. In finding the lie, there is a natural return to neutral curiosity.

Everything that has ever happened is actually over and the future never comes. This does not leave a "now" or a "present" unless I want to try to describe what this is.
I have tried and I have failed.
There is no way to describe this except to say it is in MOTION. There is no lie to aging, which is not to say imagining it doesn't happen isn't possible.
It's just silly.

I wouldn't say "striving to be logical" as it appears logical is the default of discovering the lie. The illogical is: 1) a lie and
2) an alternative way of attempting to view reality.

The challenge of the illogical view is it can lead to madness. This is not saying madness is a bad thing. It is, however, a very challenging place to live.
Having returned recently from a long stint of it, I can say the only interesting thing I learned was how to FREEZE during a psychotic break and not get sucked into the frenzy.

It was this freezing, being absolutely still in a maelstrom of voices shouting contradictory instructions, that revealed the natural logic of my immediate experience.
There is no description for the immediate events that applies, which is not to say the immediate events are not intelligible.
Not being able to explain it to you does not mean not being able to explain it to me.

While the concept of mystery is applicable when I attempt to communicate my experience to you, the experience itself is not a mystery.
It is quite obvious.

I don't have a mind, as far as I can tell. I have the concept, but I can't find the thing it refers to. In this way, I do not exactly know what I am even as I know that I am.

Nature is logical and so living as I am is actually fairly simple. I complicate my experience when I attempt to adequately explain it in abstraction.
My immediate experience is far from complicated. There is no "unknown", as far as I can tell. That is another abstraction.
 I look around the room and find computers, a beard, a Murray and a window with a view of pine trees.
I do not find an "unknown".

Logic is experiencing 'what is'.. Nature.

No need to 'think' about it and complicate things.. I see how 'unknown' is abstraction. One more layer of imagined illusion dissolved... I wouldn't say "no need to think about it" as thinking is a very useful tool for problem-solving.

I don't really know what "we" means. I assume it means "shared experience" but I have no idea what that is actually like. I have never lived as anyone else.
What does "we" mean in your experience?
When I want a lie to be true AND comfortable, it hurts.
That is all I am saying.

ps/smoh


Friday, September 20, 2013

THE MIRACLE OF LOVE



There are countless moments in all our lives when the utter conviction that we are a limited, isolated, inside self, separated off from the rest of the world, dissolves away.

Laughing with friends, playing together with children, randomly meeting the eyes of a stranger, the gap between thoughts, being moved by the beauty of a work of art, a piece of music or a film, being out in nature, being ‘in the zone’ when we literally become ‘what’s happening’, making love, watching a beautiful sunset, the satiating of a desire before a new longing takes root, the loss of a loved one when the ground is pulled from under our feet.

And then there is the birth of a child. I look now adoringly at our newborn son, caress his delicate, soft skin, gaze into his endless eyes, see his precious little form cradled in his mother's arms, who, after the pain, the agony and the torment of labour, is now radiant with joy. 

With the profound beauty of it all there is only love; love of such power, such intensity, that any attempt to contain it or divide it is simply blown away.

Often we view these moments as special events or unusual occurrences that stand apart from the ordinariness of our everyday reality. 

But what if the exact opposite were true? What if these moments offer a glimpse of our real, abiding nature, shining unobscured, before our structure of definitions, the virtual world of thought, the 'unreality', reassembles itself and, in being believed in, clouds the view once more?

Then these timeless moments come as an invitation, a catalyst, to deeply explore how life really is, beyond our thought-made interpretation. 

To unveil our true nature, the ultimate mother, whose infinitely fertile womb gives birth to this ever fresh experience called life; gives birth to every sound, image, sensation, taste, smell, thought and feeling, to time, space, colour and form, to the entire fabric of experiencing without ever being separate from it.

Then we see that we are the laughter and our friends, we are the stranger whose eyes we meet, the children we play together with, the lover and the loved, the beautiful sunset, this text on the screen and the message of freedom that it conveys. 

And yes so too are we those powerful energies that thought labels as unwanted and tries its hardest to resist for fear of being destroyed, and yes even those thoughts too, still hung up on the old belief that we are a limited, isolated, vulnerable little 'me'.

Whatever is in experience can never not be what we are. 

That is the pure intimacy for which we long, that is coming home, that is the miracle of love.

Namaste

ps/smoh

Thursday, September 19, 2013

The gift of realizing all insults are false statements is never needing to entertain one again...

 An insult is a statement of stupidity by the insulter. When the insulted believes the statement to be true, offense is experienced. 
All insults are insane because they are merely different versions of 
"THIS should not be happening," or 
"THIS should not be here." 
The THIS proves the rest of the statement to be false instantly.

THIS is threatening to the insulter's ego and it can be blind to reality because it is not what it wants or thinks it needs to survive. 
Might it be more ignorance than stupidity?

Having said that, you never know, maybe an insult is a good thing sometimes ha-ha.

Sometimes it´s completely useless, let´s just the people assume their responsibility. If you are bad with an insult that means the person is maybe right! How awful. If you don´t have problem with insult, you just let it flow.
One of the statements I always say is; 
"I invite you to boldly be yourself and know that there is no way that you can offend me ... because you do not have the power to do so ... only I have the power to offend myself." 

I find it fascinating that most don't seem to get that statement. Others understand it, but yet do not or cannot put it into practice. 
Then there are the few who understand it and practice it. It is those clients that I choose to closely work with and, I find, have the capacity to also understand the junk they choosing as they traverse through the lens of the human experience.

Those who understand the nature of how experience arises are sane. 
Those who don't are insane. 
This is why it is more pleasant to work with someone who knows how confusion happens. Sanity can make progress.  
It is also why it is fascinating to meet someone who doesn't know how confusion happens. The person is insane, and thus not yet a person.  
I notice the fascination for me is really the question, 
"Well, if you aren't a person/sane, what are you?"

My good friend gave me the book Handbook to Higher Conscientiousness in 1997 and I remember a quote from it: 
"to take offense is just as bad as to give offense" 
That is more of a paraphrase, but that idea has served me well over the years. I still feel offended on occasion, but remembering this principle helps me to drop it.

Examine your premises.

What are you assuming is the case, and have you checked to see if it is indeed the case? 

Take any premise you have, write it down, and then determine a way to prove it is or is not so. Frustration can only result from assuming a false premise is true. 
Now proof is tricky because it can only be contextual. Absolute proof is an oxy-moron because the absolute cannot be defined.
However, within the context of being a computational machine in motion, which is what we are, proof can occur, relatively.

THIS is absence of "should". That is the first clue to what THIS is.

ps/smoh

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Marriage is in question.....

Is it still the rock that stands firm in the eddying stream of society? 
Or has it been swept away in the torrent of change which society is experiencing?
Marriages do indeed take place, but nearly half of them crumble and disa
ppear. 
WHY??? 
Because partners are no longer accepted as grist to the mill that refines their relationship. 

In my opinion and am living by it, we need to realize that marriage as a sacrament cannot be entered into lightly. It needs preparation, so that the two who wish to marry become conscious of the undertaking they will make to each other.

The standing of each individual and the equality of men and women need to be recognized.

The sacrament of marriage calls up the awareness of a special responsibility in those who marry, namely to strive for togetherness, one that embeds itself into life, into all that works through the biography and destiny of each partner.

It also points to the spiritual dimension in the striving of both, so that the divine force in earthy life is acknowledge and itself can be a witness to the commitment that the two person make to each other.

The marriage envisages that those who marry are not halves making the whole but the two wholes who place themselves in the service of each other. 

The aim is not only to share a domestic arrangement or even for the sake of bringing up a family; these aspect need a higher principle to enliven and safeguard them.

This higher principle is one of regard for the wholeness of each other, the unfolding person who is equally at home in the spiritual world and in the earthy.
Regard for the one who can aspire to great thoughts and enjoy a rich imagination, and at the same time can be fully practical and wise about earthy needs and situation that life presents.

It calls for person who are able and glad to give space to each other and enable to the other to grow.
Persons who know their own weaknesses and selfish habits (like me) and are working to overcome them.
Persons who are striving in their soul life to be channels of feeling and love.
Persons who have greatness of heart. 
These qualities require an acceptance of the divine, the welcoming of an angelic guide, and the pledge to be aware of the well being of one's partner.

These components build a marriage, bonded in the love of the partners, which ensures that children born to them will have an emotionally and spiritually nurturing family life.

They also make it possible for the couple to go through hardship, setback and difficulties in their individual biographies and their relationship without turning against each other; indeed they will be able to accept the challenges and learn through the experience of dealing with them openly and together such as the 'mother-in-law' issue??

Then, as the children grow up and leave the home, the couple will continue to sustain and enrich each other's wholeness, I hope, and prepare for the ageing process that can turn knowledge into wisdom and experience into understanding.


Relationship in a marriage is like a piece of music, and the partners in a marriage are the composers; they compose this music together.

For relationship needs a clear rhythm on which to build. Its melody will explore the ne
w, you can never anticipate the way a melody is going, even if it repeats itself, for there is always development.

In regards to harmony, sometimes there is dissonance - chords that are not in accord; but then as the music develops, harmony is restored.

There are times when the relationship will be in slow movement - adagio. At other time it will be allegro; rippling along, enjoying each new moment, welcoming the new day and all that takes place in the course of it, and enjoying each other in the twirl and trills of soaring phrases.

There are all possible moods in a relationship, as in music; all possible modes. What makes it like music is the UNITY, the WHOLENESS and the WORKING out of a theme.

Destiny has led you together, and there is a deep-down meaning in your togetherness, this you have shown to one another. 


So, it comes down to us, what do we want from our marriage??? 

ps/smoh




Tuesday, September 17, 2013

More than anything else, authenticity is what feels good to the soul. Complex, yet so simple....



Somewhere down the road it will all make sense. 
Don't ever, ever, ever, ever give up. 

You need no other reason, other than you’re alive and here to love yourself. 
Remember that YOU matter. 

Gratitude and love to all the loving and caring being. 
You are the kings of this world!  

A universe of possibilities, 
sees it, 
feel it, 
build it, 
create it. 

Gratitude for another day, life is ephemeral, treasure yours, and treasure the ones you love. Life is inherently magical and full of miracles, but can you allow it in your life, can you allow it in your heart. 
Do you know you're worthy of living all the joy you desire to experience? 
Do you know you could take action right now, small or big and as crazy and beautiful as you will let it be? 

Spending time with loved ones this weekend and thinking about all the family members I lost these past years, I realize more and more, life is an illusion, yet very precious, so much is not that serious, but love.

Share your love, share your heart, your passions, your uniqueness, you deserve it; the ones you love deserve it.

The beautiful moon tonight, in waning phase, the time to face and let go of what needs to be released in your life. 
Life is now. 
Acceptance of what is is very powerful.

ps/smoh

Monday, September 16, 2013

"The fear of death is the wrestling match between the adrenal glands and the vagus nerve."

To do anything fun, even once, in a universe like this one, where the genetic lottery is the way it is and the forces exert are the way they and the timing is the snap! it is...

To have the luxury to have the time to worry...

To sit here, in the only thing ever known, still...

What a wonder to exist at all. Sure it's a pain in the ass, not knowing what is going to happen, kind of, and not winning and not achieving our dreams but so what?! 
ALIVE!!

The fear of death is the wrestling match between the adrenal glands and the vague nerve. Fun is freedom. Jokes are freedom. 

There is no greater joke than standing in the thing that kills are made of the thing that kills are sitting in the thing that births while reading what the thing that births is trying to say about the killing, not killing, and birthing.

Love being able to hear the power gather and disperse on the turns.

The strangest thing about being a meat battery is knowing it's not rechargeable.

It's also the coolest thing, knowing it's made of temporary.
Helps get it going.

Spirituality is another form of egotism on the island. 

It assumes the life is so special it needs other places to exist in order to be here at all. 
It is a middle finger to the entire wonder being alive really is.

Today and tonight is to create another place.

Don't recommend it.

It was the desire for achievement that pained. 

Sacrificed time, art, joy, and playfulness to the ever-launching missile of progress. 
Only achievement could have achieved was patience with the impossibility of achievement. 
Eventually, just relaxed.

This was the Shire if we was willing to live in wonder from the heart. 

Didn't have to be willing though. 
We could be all cranky and shit. 
No one else was coming.

bs/ps/smoh

Sunday, September 15, 2013



"When you concentrate on becoming what you should be, the right things come into your life, almost magically. 
If you are searching for that special person, stop pushing so hard, and turn your attention inside.
When you become the kind of man that you should be, 

you will find that the right woman will come into your life, and 
most likely, more than one of them. 
First make sure you are a gentleman warrior, then you will find things start to fall into place in ways that you never could have imagined. 
Concentrate on becoming the right man!" - said Mum *__*

ps/smoh

note to AOH

Saturday, September 14, 2013


When joy is in your heart, life becomes brighter more alive. Relations flow with ease and grace... opening portals to intimacy and shared moments of deep connection. 

Follow the path of life... 
let its strings gently move you to the dance... 
let the sound of the heart fill you... and 
let your hands embrace what comes... 
unfolding every event to its delicate details experiencing the flow of what is to come in the name of love. 

Gratitude opens your heart. 

Let yourself be grateful for all the small things in your life, friends, good food, our work, our body and so many more things. 
Let it fill you, let it open you to the wonders of life... this day... this moment.

You who find your way around the invisible lines between the stars... 
with the clarity of the heart that sees... 
that knows... 
that loves... for to love is to give, make us all recipients of your gifts... 
Helps us to open... so we may know to receive... like you... all the grace of the Creator.

ps/smoh

Friday, September 13, 2013

We are the vehicles through which God expresses itself along with everything else...

The creative intelligence of the universe wants to move through you like a clear channel. 

It wants to play you like a music instrument. 
It wants to rock you like a hurricane. 
It wants to bring something incredible and unique into this dimension of reality through your unique expression. 
It wants to create the new through YOU. 

New worlds, 
new consciousness, 
new culture, 
new communities, 
new paradigm in relationships, 
new higher forms of artistic beauty, 
new expressions of love and harmony, 
higher and higher levels of vibration, synchronistic magic!

It wants you! 
Every single ounce of you! 

Say Yes to this universal creative intelligence with your whole body, 
your whole mind, 
your whole heart. 
Say Yes and life begins to become extraordinarily exciting. 

Say Yes.

ps/smoh

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Reality is directly available.

There is nothing happening otherwise. 
There is nothing to anticipate. 
This is the way it is. 
This is it. 
Both you and me are one and zero, together we ruler the knowledge. We can agree, disagree, and ignore agreeing and disagreeing.

I am you in some way that deeply has not been determined other than the fact I exist enough to know you might be more than I think you are and less than I know, or vice versa. We are, and perhaps are not, together none the wiser for this being so.

All fear is of sort of existing.

Existence is the bond we share and existing is how we share it. It is silly to say I am the universe writing my Self.

The reason being what a universe is, what a self is, what a being is none of this has been determined. 
The very nature of our existence is the living question we are answering by existing.

What we are may not be we, like it or leave it. I can share what our nervous system is doing as this and you can share what our nervous system is doing as that.

Report ability is all living is. 

No one is remembering what no one is being. 
I was never living another version of our story. 
Love is the absence of fear. 
It is an unmistakable reality. 
I-we-is-and-is-not-I-us. 

The challenge of life is never the fear of the future. It is the fear of nothing. That is the whole question drills into space, personality fears, not traits.

They compost like any other living tissue. Neurons are just little seedlings. Memory records are sifted through consciousness.
Eventually, quiet, content fearlessness is the result. 

Awakening is a process, like any other kind of growing.
Fear isn't of dying. 
It is of nothing at all. 

I may attack myself in your body. 
You may forget it is us. 
I will not be afraid. 

Everyone I ever met was a mirror; a pupil, into which I fell and, like Alice, had the most remarkable adventure of the imagination. 
Nothing to prove, 
Nothing to fear, nothing to do. 
All is welcome.

For there to be a body to know about there has to be an I. Future success depends on past and present failing. 
Go Fail!

Love is desire and there is no greater desire than the love we are when we are fearless.
Don't believe any categorical labels apply absolutely to anything.
Love is not an action. 
It is a state of fearlessness. 
In solitude, love is not lost.

Whatever transfers physics from blackboard to bomb is question physics cannot answer yet.

Fear Nothing. 
Love Self.

bs/ps/smoh

Monday, September 9, 2013

Sweet soft and lovely....

I feel touched deeply by the simplicity of this machine and how we, 

who may be lost or found or upsidedown;

who may be schizo, auti, or bi, (polar, sexual, and coastal); 

who may hate politics, religion, government, schooling and other people;

who may worship animals, cosmetics, mischief, music or cash;

who may be awake bright and early or grabbing one last cruise down the news feed;

who might be on the lunch hour, or on company time, or at home "sick", or in the hospital, sick;

who might be broken, tired, exhausted, bored, scarred, and hopeless;

who might think their awake or asleep or dreaming;

I salute you all with the deepest respect.

I stand in wonder of our lifetime and how, no matter how poetic, pedantic or postulary we may be, we continue to meet here in this odd, not-really-the-world world as friends, annoyances and above all else..


ps/smoh