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Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Remembering you...

An old friend was sharing that finally the personality was gone and she was “no longer there.” After 30+ years of dedicating herself to awakening, liberation, enlightenment, she had “made it.” At last, there was “no more self."

I wasn’t really sure what to say. It felt as if she was looking for some acknowledgement, some mirroring, some validation. It was sweet, in a way. I turned inward, scanning for any somatic response. I mostly felt raw, just really open, a bit sad, and a bit shaken, wondering how the precious journey of human spirituality ever came to be about not having a personality or a self, or so wrapped up in following the call to be in a “state” other than the one that is here now. 

When exactly did spirituality become about the egoic need to prove to others and yourself that you are free from the ego?

The ego is such a wily and creative character. It has an uncanny way of being able to get its hands into even the most subtle and sacred experiences and make them its own, wrapping its tightly-woven cocoon around the nakedness of our humanity.

After our exchange, I reflected upon the fact that the truly “awakened” people I have been privileged to meet have very strong personalities, are very much “there,” and use the gift of thought and egoic process as skillful means to help others, not to further the dream of separation.

They are riveted in the here and now, radically embodied, and profanely human.
They are people of the earth, passionately interested in what is happening in the hearts of the others around them, and not terribly interested in moving into some other “higher” state of consciousness.

Rather, they are moved deeply by *this* state of consciousness, whatever it might be, curious about its texture and its color and its unique gifts.
For them, there is no longer any reference point of what “state” of consciousness they happen to be in, but rather how can they move so deeply into the unknown that love has no other option but to pour though them, forever touching everyone and everything in its wake.

“It's having a cup of tea with your old dad, or your mum.....your hand brushing against his or hers as you reach for the sugar, and it's not understanding any of it anymore, but it's radically being here, present and awake to what is, being in love with it all even when it hurts, being in love with the one in front of you, for this may be the last time you ever meet, father, sister, mother, brother, husband, wife, friend...”

It’s about being so in love with this life, with *this* state of consciousness, feet firmly planted right here on this earth, intertwined with time and space, allowing the movement of transcendence to burn up in the fire of unknowingness, of groundlessness, of uncertainty.

Finally, home, always home, never having left home, in the midst of it all—the screaming babies, the unpaid bills, the ever-expanding to-do list, the scariness of intimacy, the grief, the joy, the sadness, the anger, the anxiety, the tenderness, the depression, the unbearable bliss.

Discovering in just one moment of right here, right now, when the heart is so fragile that its falling apart seems imminent;

finding that it’s all sacred, that it's all there is, and that there is not—and never was—a dividing line between the sacred and the profane, between the “Divine” and, what, the non-Divine?

What would that be actually?

And all of these old concepts and spiritual conditioning obliterate themselves into a yummy pile of grace-honey that you fall into, willingly, getting sticky with the sweet goo that is this life, in all its infinite expressions, in all its wonder and pain and joy, its never-ending and forever incomprehensible grace... and then arising out of all of it, the only response that makes any sense whatsoever… a profound gratitude, for this reality, this body, this state of consciousness, these senses.

What a miracle.

love light and peace

Oh the arrogance of some....

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

What makes you feel strong, powerful, wise, beautiful, kind, courageous, abundant, healthy, adventurous, joyful, safe, loving, open, social and curious of what’s to come?

One common theme is that quality of life is closely related to your sense of connection, community and belonging, your focus on contribution helping others.

I currently have clarity but inaction that makes no sense, only reason can be fear.

That’s actually the default outcome; everything does turn out okay, at least to the level of you being able to make another choice and move on.
That is a tall order to feel simultaneously, but I believe it’s both possible and already the truth deep inside you.

But psychological fear is only a colourful product of the mind. Think about the amount of times you have been worried and things turned out alright.
Why would you hold on to something that does not serve you? As Yoda said: Train yourself to let go... of everything you fear to lose.

I like to remind myself that logic is over-rated as well.

Fear; self-doubt are the great roadblocks of our time some would say.  When we figure out how to overcome fear; self-doubt ... All our dreams will come true. BUT even with no fear and excellent self-confidence you will have restrictions on what you can achieve.

Do all the inner work, hustle, awareness and spiritual hula dance you want – you will only reach so far holistically.
Your blueprint is fairly set.
Fancy words and theory don’t really interest me that much now. I’m highly pragmatic and down to earth these days….mud before clouds.

Seriously, I would have thought you had figured out abundance by now. So, what are eloquent words and concepts worth, if they do not elevate you and your community? It’s just mental masturbation for your mind to keep chasing its tail.
Spirituality is not dead, but for me the next phase will be based on 100% inner impulse and guidance, found in everyday life, nature and meditation.

As for good and bad; No, of course there is no good or bad.
Millions of people are doing wonderful things with contribution to society, while having abundant financial lives and great wealth.

I see no friction in that, money is natural. It’s what you do with the energy of money that gives it an identity.
"Do not confuse motion and progress. A rocking horse keeps moving but does not make any progress."

##hope this answered your question


Monday, July 31, 2017

Being in motion is where I find wellbeing and connection. I've realized a few major things about my life plans.

My travels now are in a way research. I’m okay with not achieving anything grand, not having a huge impact on others, building my own company or working for a notable cause.
Contributing to the change of consciousness is found in the details; notice the details and the space in between.
My most cherished mood is feeling Safe; feeling safe physically, emotionally, free from worry about plans/choices/FOMO, finances, health, connections, commitments, relationships – while being able to support the people I love and the things I do.

I had lofty ideas 10 years ago, but now I understand that life resides in the everyday little things. It’s all there; everything you want and need.

Do hang around for the next dip into the valley of darkness, because it will come. Such are the waves and seasons.
In retrospect, I see much wisdom gained from that contrast; the crashes, isolation, escapism, destructive behaviour and long nights.

Those sunny days where Unicorns and Care Bears dance boogie on fluffy clouds are soothing and look good on Instagram posts, but I’ll take both.

I want both, because that’s what a good life adventure is all about.

Be sure to appreciate what you've got before it becomes what You had. Gratitude applies to everyone and everything in our lives so be sure that your Attitude is one of Gratitude. None of us know for sure when our number is up, so be grateful every day for all those in your life.


Sunday, July 30, 2017

If you’re standing on a nail, you don’t take painkillers and keep standing on the nail. You remove your foot from the nail.

The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else's highlight reel.

Tarzan analogy

You will swing from vine to vine. There will never be one vine to take you all the way through the jungle.

Choose one that swings in the desired direction and hold on to the best of your ability. Remember to let go and leap for the next, otherwise you will not move along.

If one breaks (and they will) climb up the tree again. There are many paths.

Don’t have one, can't find one? Make one.

You probably won’t become wise and filled with abundant life experiences by sitting on the couch at home.

Take a walk, outside.

When looking in the mirror, I no more evaluate if I look cool, athletic, super-fit, lean or ‘right’. I now only ponder; do I look healthy and at ease?

Look at your eyes and skin, your mood. Choose to be healthy and at ease. Be Happy is Be Real.

Everything you see belongs to you, without exception.

There are many subtle ways people control each other in conversation. Fun to look at...

Seems to me that human "relationships" are about manipulation in general. Seems everybody wants something from each other.

1. What do I want?

2. What am I using it for?

3. Why do I care?

Nothing has ever worked for me more than these three little questions.

Those are great questions.  The answers can be nuts, for me it is crazy clarifying...

Because then I realize I am one of those uses for just anybody else who would ever consider me at all...

That’s so equalizing... or really needed.  I don't like being needed.

Need seems a farce because I die right now and no one actually has a problem, just a little boo-hoo if at all.....so I would bet if you look, you fear being useless.

I am useless and it doesn't bother me....that am the only “credential" I have for saying that. I don't know the idea of being useless sounds relaxing.

It's easy to see if you're sensitive observer. The person being brutally honest and direct is still only coming from their own perspective.
Social niceties are appreciated by those with sensitive feelings. I'm glad I'm empathic because I can read between the lines, sense what's beneath the words but still have compassion for our shared humanity and allow for people to not know how to be clear or direct or speak nicely when they do. So many layers of conditioning fear and need to sift thru for many of us.
Empathy is how you win....
If you are not empathic, people decide what you are...
If you are empathic, people decide what you are,
but you made them think it was their idea...

The belief in their supremacy runs deep. When we convince ourselves of their standard, the outcome is always dysfunction…… these self loathing zombies dare to be cloaked in glorious melanin

Thursday, July 27, 2017

However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at. • Stephen Hawking

We all have a million things we are not good at. Some things we do better than average and a precious few we both love and excel in doing.
That’s your sweet spot.
If having to make the choice between improving my weaknesses or doubling down on my unique strengths, I will in most cases go full-in on my strengths.
You might be considering someone close to you and think “not sure about this one, because Mr. Annoying or Miss Clueless should really improve other aspects of their personality or skill set”.
And you’re right, there is no simple black & white answer.
I would just suggest today to consider my approach, because your lesser qualities will always be there. No one really cares or notices if you have become 7% better at this or that.
People will however notice and value what you consistently are good at.
Excellent performance, be it in social dynamics, a job or interest, your own habits and behaviors, painting or parenting – will provide you leverage and with leverage your weaknesses become more irrelevant.
While being self-aware and kind, try a more fuck this-attitude and go for your Magic Sauce.

Because your Magic Sauce is what makes you... You.

There is always something to be grateful for in your days.
When you adopt an attitude of Gratitude it's easier to see things clearly and realise that we don't have such a bad life. 

Remember there are millions of people who would love your life.

love light and peace

Thursday, January 12, 2017

We are constantly falling into the trap of "how" the world wants us to be, rather than how we really should be. 
Thinking, searching, seeking and pondering seems to be a right we give to others while we easily fall into their dictation. 
We are dictated the right colour that is accepted, a certain dress code that is accepted, a certain way of life that is accepted, everything except the real us. 
Most of us live our lives worrying what the other person might think of us. I am among the fair few who choose to be what I am, no matter what the opposition, usually become outcasts. 
The problem is not with those who choose to conform to the truth; the problem is with the society itself. 

I am a rebel a woman speaking against rules set by the real MAD men from the dark ages!

What should be our own journey, by losing focus we lose ourselves following others through their journey, trying to live their life because we find our own lives inadequate, therefore to capture their lifestyle; we lose purpose as well as direction of our journey.
To capture the lifestyle we lose the Life we were given. I am living mine the way I want to according to me and me alone!

Love light and peace