Life in the wide world goes on much as it has these past
ages, full of its own comings and goings, scarcely aware of the existence of
being... for which I am very thankful.
Well, what can I tell you?
It needs to
hurt in order to be worthy of the word.
Otherwise it is just wanting.
I really miss her presence in this world, my world and the physical aspects of her body being here.
I hope I am able to find my way out of the grief and live on
with purpose again. Never have I felt such emptiness. I feel like I am a shell with
nothing inside. My stomach hurts so much. Or is it my heart? I feel sick.
Nothing can prepare you for what it’s like to lose your mum.
I’ve had many friends throughout the years who have lost their own mothers. I
felt sad for them and offered words of comfort. I had absolutely no idea though
how excruciating it is to no longer have your mother with you.
If you haven’t lost your mother, you won’t fully understand
the depths of grief one goes through. The pain is crippling, and it hits you at
random moments.
One minute you might be fine, and the next minute you are
curled up in a ball on your bedroom floor in inconceivable pain. If you have
lost your mother, then you’re probably sitting there nodding your head in
agreement.
I ask your loving assistance dear god in helping me enter this year
free of the past and future.
Let me step into a new me, filled with wonder, exploding
with the excitement of a child, curious and trusting that the Universe is
dancing with me as I discover more and more of my true nature and the exquisite
beauty of this life of mine.
Let me shake like dead leaves from a tree thoughts that cloud my heart and fears that menace my freedom.
Let me shake like dead leaves from a tree thoughts that cloud my heart and fears that menace my freedom.
Allow me to laugh at the things I fear and breathe into the
courage to be myself as I face the unknown.
Know I am grateful beyond measure and words and live to make
my contribution matter, even if by only adding my open heart to a world in
suffering.
The purity, innocence of the mind is our constant companion, as each moment becomes an opportunity of creative “being”.
The purity, innocence of the mind is our constant companion, as each moment becomes an opportunity of creative “being”.
Through this way of “being” - as pure Consciousness - we
ourselves create a new world in which Love, beauty, compassion and kindness
become a reality which positively influences the whole of humankind.
So be it this new day.
love light and peace
ps/smoh
I really miss your presence in this world dear mummy and...thanks for everything.
Love forever
love light and peace
ps/smoh
I really miss your presence in this world dear mummy and...thanks for everything.
Love forever