Even after decades, people can surprise you by turning into someone who will attack rather than defend your precious self.
I have been practicing discernment. Recognizing when the feelings
– frequency and vibrations I am receiving are not my own. The negative or ones
of sorrow go right to my gut. It feels awful. I step back and discern "are
these MY feelings"? I own my own emotions, but when I have no reason to be
feeling that way I reflect back positive energy. Energy of love. Just doing so
makes me feel somewhat better. I will add the "conscious armouring"
and wear a tin foil hat because being empathic can be overwhelming at times. *__^
"Being
a sensitive person can be a confusing, complicated thing in this still harsh
world. It feels intuitively right to open, to feel, to enhearten our daily
life, but the world is still vibrating at a more armoured and edgy place. It is
not yet attuned to the ways of the open heart.
So what to do?
We don't want to deaden our capacity to feel, but if we feel
too much, we get run over by an often heartless world. I have found my best
answer in three places:
(1) Selective Attachment; that is- carefully discerning
between positive and negative individuals and environments, and only attaching
to those people and places that can hold our tender heart safe;
(2) Strong
energetic boundaries; that is- being physically and emotionally charged, so
that we can more effectively repel unwelcome energies;
(3) Conscious Armouring;
that is- learning how to put on armour when necessary to manage the world and
difficult situations, and, consciously removing it when it is no longer needed.
If we cultivate these practices, we stand a much better chance of preserving
our sensitivity. Once we lose it, we lose our connection to the moment
altogether.
Here's to a sensitive way of being! What a courageous path."
I get exhausted when I’m in a toxic environment or company. I just get depleted and run down and depressed and nothing changes in the other.
If someone comes with heavy baggage in their 50s, in my experience it’s very unlikely these changes will come quick enough for the counterpart to maintain their own vibrancy while the work goes on, or, indeed, doesn't go on.
The trouble is when you meet folk who have (3) Unconscious armouring,
complete with a whole host of weaponry to protect themselves, that ultimately
destroys the very love they and each soul seeks - pushing away, blocking,
controlling, moods that they then project back onto the other in any attempt to
fiercely avoid taking any personal responsibility.
When in the wake of that and no ability to talk about these
issues with any real honesty, one finds that meeting with these energy drainers
that number 2 becomes weakened as a result and therefore recourse to number 1, selective attachment, MUST come into practice.
I am meeting these kind of unconscious being all too often
and am looking at why.
I do know though that I am getting quicker at removing
myself because having been there many times I know the end result of staying
there and trusting that love, compassion and understanding will win out in the
end. It hasn't.
A tendency also for these kind of folk to only see where
they FEEL they are being denied affections and see no insight into their own
rejecting behaviours that eventually manifest in the other a holding back.
Time
for one to take responsibility for their own inner light and journey. Until
such a time they do they will only continue to try and quash the light of those
they meet, and then blame you for it.
As another indigo, I have tried with much
empathy to meet these folk and aid in the adjustment but it takes it out from
me.
No more. Higher vibration others need only apply, especially when it comes
to matters of my intimate vulnerable and giving heart.
Find out what is working for
you and what you like to be. Try to discern what fear is and what intuition is.
Protection and truth!
ps/smoh
