Other Notes From the Field

My ignorance is greater than my intelligence by the size of the things I cannot know to not know about. Dumbly peaceful in me.
Maybe it could be that one does not need to know to be intelligent.
Maybe intelligence is a quality that appears no matter what I know about.

I have no contact with 90% of my bloodline and it has been the most healing choice I have ever made to cut those cords. At some point, one's own sanity and peace must prevail. The joy of setting boundaries and sticking to them is now called: Cactusing. "I had to cactus them."

You have every right to preserve your emotional integrity.

Despite the trials and chaos of our times, we still have a choice. We can choose our daily emotions and reality. We don't have to let the negativity of our times become the emotions of our character.

I grew up with many who were quite happy to take their shit out on others. They were quite capable of yelling, blaming and talking behind one’s backs, but when it came time to be accountable and to process their actions, they always had an excuse:

they weren’t “feeling well,”

they weren’t “up to it,”

their “nerves were shot.”

Perhaps you can relate to this manipulative pattern the perfect set-up for one-sided abuse.

Bottom line- If you have the energy to initiate a conflict, you have the energy to work it through.

All those excuses equal one thing - running away.

Don’t wait until your death bed to finally open your heart, safe in the knowledge that your vulnerability is time-limited. Better to in wakening now. .Let it go, be in the present, heals the blindness of humanity and lives peacefully. 

That's it, that's all that is it. 

Back to the present times, we need to be. 

The world needs peace, not conflict, not propaganda, not more evil. 

I wish more people had the insight and courage to heal their broken souls there are far too many in the world, what a more loving world we would be...

I wish I could stop evil. 

I wish I could have protected friends that got hurt but I know life has gotten so much harder with the amount of racist, hateful and homophobic people in the world. 

I wish I knew how to talk without it being condemned by people with different and changing ideologies that are often not compassionate.

More than anything, we long to be seen. To be held in a safe, all-accepting presence, and be seen through loving eyes.

The way the spontaneous meets the inevitable...

The way a smile isn't always a weapon.

The way each memory also haunts the yet-to-be-remembered.

The way a door hinge does all the work.

The way people who work with their hands understand textures.

The way the universe loves stars and insects.

The way a love walks in and just sits down as is and the whole world comes over and feeds it.

The way it pops up at the right moment only.

The way the universe is missing something kinder than us.

So

love light and peace

ps/smoh

You are your story, just like a book is a book.

The saying, "you are not your story," is trying to say that we are more than what happened to us. While that may be intrinsically true, any form of bypassing doesn't work and is not healthy. You have to work this stuff or it never leaves you. People seem to find the kind of religion or spirituality that will reinforce, rather than heal, their defenses.

I wanted to flee my past, so I conveniently bought into that.

Beware the transcendence bypasses who deny the significance of our stories. They are often deeply unwell. 

It’s one thing to say that we should not get trapped inside of our stories, but to suggest that all of our stories are without value and merit, is to deny our existence. I understand that they believe there is something greater awaiting us beyond the self but they are wrong. Whatever greatness awaits us must thread through the heart of the self, so that our experience of the “beyond,” is rooted in something real: our precious humanity and that is the only path home.

The story bypassing troupe has forgotten that their non-story shtick is a story, too. It’s always a story. The question is what we are going to do with it? 

Are we going to dive into the heart of it and expand in karmic stature through the learning of the lesson, or are we going to drown in our unresolved, floating numb and detached down in denial?

Do not deny the veracity of our suffering and distract us from the deeper issue: that which sources our thoughts. 

Turn toward our stories, and find our true-path right at our heart. I agree with the underlying philosophy, that we are so much more than our thoughts.

This philosophy seeks to find the rest of who we are beyond the self and seek to find it right at the heart of the self itself. 

We human being with emotionally integrated, richly nuanced, and full-bodied vital and robust.

Simply choose to live simply and work on being honest about our experience a little more each day. Just remember the only person you can truly believe in is yourself. 

We all are searching for our true purpose and our story is part of us if we ditch the story we ditch our very soul. 

Our story is our very being in human and spiritual form.

It’s what we have and have not learned our mistakes, our loves, our happiness, our joys, our sadness, our fear, our anger, our hatred and our peace of mind.

It includes the whole spectrum of feelings, deeds, and emotions. 

It’s not about the positive or negative...it’s about the purpose of the journey itself in its entire entirety in authenticity.

love light and peace

ps/smoh

On the topic of free speech and political censorship:

Should an attempt to censor political opinions (i.e. not including the censoring of medically inaccurate info. that physically harms people) be taken as willful ignorance?

Example:

1) Someone says something you disagree with. Even something that is flat-out wrong by your understanding.

2) You either

a) Raise counter-arguments,

Or

b) Try to have this different position removed from your presence and the presence of others.

Or

c) You just ignore it because you don’t understand the issue or because you’re not bothered to respond.

If you take the route of a) you do so because you know you have the arguments to back up your position and are willing to take an honest stance on them that accepts counter-arguments.

If you take b) You do so because you know on some level that you don’t have the arguments to back up your position, whether that is simply in a moment of forgetfulness or in general, and you are not bothered to research a counter-argument. AND you think the argument is too dangerous to be allowed remain in circulation unopposed by your worldview.

Taking c) is an honest response in recognition of ignorance that still respects other’s freedom of expression.

In my opinion, option b) is a foolish response. It assumes that you are correct even if you can’t or won’t argue your position. It is the removal of dissenting voices and the purposeful maintenance of an echo chamber.

What I would consider willful ignorance.

Regardless of the fact that this is obviously not a practice that removes bad ideas from any world other than your own personal one,

Is this matter different from the way I have described it?

As there is inevitably more to be considered, are there any points of consideration that strongly undermine the situation as I have laid it out?

This saying comes to mind: if you dish it, be willing to take it too.

Having said that, anyone can self determines the amount of dish or shit they're willing to take.

But IF I call for censorship, I better be able to support it with reasons or else remove myself from the room. People need to be able to take their own medicine. The only good reason for censorship, in my opinion, is if you are watching a malicious group preach violence in a way that’s actually having a demonstrable impact (because there are plenty of cases where people are all bark and no bite), and you feel it is necessary to temporarily restrict them until you can come up with a better solution.

love light and peace

ps/smoh

When People Say: "I couldn't help myself . . ." Could they? Or not?

People LIKE to think that we make choices, but in reality, we do especially not in the "here and now"... 

People have too much faith in their chain of thought's influence on their actual choices.

There was once a study where people were in a brain-scan while getting yes or no questions and the results were studied. One of the things they found was that in the pattern of the immediate reaction after the question was asked the final answer was usually apparent so the choice was made and AFTER this the brain sprung to life.

This is only one of many studies that indicate that people don't need to "think" to know their answers, but rather thinks in order to justify their answers.

Freud had an oversimplified model of how the human mind works, which is pretty much on the nose. we have our "id" which is the subconscious. The superego which is the conscious mind, our actual thought processes and ideas. And... In the middle is the "Ego" which works as a gatekeeper... it is to reconcile the two sides into one single course of action.

We are fools when we think of our thoughts as our actual true nature considering how much evidence there is that our thoughts are usually less influential on our actual actions. For example the power of repetitions; Commercials... How different people think depending on cultural conditioning... and how much social situations influence us.

There is a study that shows that inherited traits probably have more to do when shaping our personality than upbringing.

And still, people think that keeping a low weight is about "will power". Will power exists, but it is only a temporary thing, in the long term habits, urges, etc. are often much more influential. And Maslow’s pyramid of needs seems to constantly keep true... if a "lower" need isn't fulfilled, then our subconscious will make us ignore all higher goals in life until it has been fulfilled.

Just my take...

love light and peace

ps/smoh

Adjust your crown and keep on walking!

Don't take advice about Life from someone who is not enjoying life and living a lie, said I.

I've learned that people generally want us well, but if the person does not exemplify a quality I respect – I will have to look elsewhere.

Human beings are already naughty enough with trying to control each other without knowing what each other is thinking, plus having privacy of thought, means we can think to ourselves in peace without others getting excited and in our face, offering unwanted judgement and commentary when we don't want them to and generally just getting all up in our business that derived us loony because if we want to broadcast our thoughts to others we can always SPEAK. 
Thank GOD we have the sanctuary of our thoughts being PRIVATE. We can choose what or what not to share. 
There is a boundary, instead of any bugger being able to pry and spy whenever they want.

Yea why do some enjoy taking down a peg or two to cause someone to feel inadequate by outdoing or surpassing them???

"Watch it move. The baton of self-hatred. Passed from one person to the next, in the form of insults, arbitrary judgments, glares, and stares. One generation after another, riddled with internalized shame, channeling it towards their fellow humans in the hope that it will get rid of it. But it doesn’t get rid of it- it just embeds it further. The more we shame others, the more we internalize our own shame. The more we hate others, the more we hate ourselves. The more we judge others, the more we judge ourselves. We are one of the first generations with the chance to shift this pattern, to stop this self-perpetuating cycle of shame. I will begin...Fellow humans, treasure yourselves, honour your divinity, I wish for you everything that makes you whole."

 We don't need to explain our stand. We only need to show it...

It's so easy to blame things or others for what happened to us but it is our responsibility to live our lives.

Nobody has the obligation to make us happy or to handle things we want to and when we liberate ourselves from this way of thinking and take our lives in our own hands, the feeling is much better and the outcome more often than not, is what we decided for.

We can't create or change all exterior circumstances and people, but we can always choose how to deal with them and thus create ourselves and our own life over and over. And perhaps this will reflect on exterior circumstances, and people, eventually.

Sometimes you have to look at the person coming to tell you the story than the actual story being told..... Food for thought

 I realised that we as a human being are fully capable of a wide spectrum of emotions. We all are living in the truthfully grey area, it is NOT black or white if the right button is pushed we are all capable of harmful action. 
Each person has their own swags. It has to please our sensibility.


We don't know very much. That's why we act like we do. I have spent a lot of time gathering information on the subject of reality. Turns out it isn't interested in explaining itself. This blank space brought to you by the great mystery.
I find myself at a crossroads. We should never assume we know what we are doing or why or who we are doing it for. We are just not that smart. So I sit wondering, pondering....what is for me and I know the answer will not come in words.
So I wait. Waiting is difficult; it entails surrender to the unknown.
Silence is a master teacher.

Keep sailing your own boat...

love light and peace

ps/smoh